Isolation

Isolation in crowded rooms

Self imposed rules 

With no origin or destination

Cut off from the crowd

Peering into empty black

Inky glistening off tear stained lashes

Knowing that no one

Or do they

Can they will they 

Questions best left unanswered

The twisting uncertainty of will over matter

The burdens magnified by their own substance

A quagmire of desperation leading only deeper

While crying so desperate with unheard whispers 

The matter doesn't nor ever did it

There is no real answer

Not now maybe ever

That point long since past

Searching for solid amongst 

Gelatin the illusion of substance

Only colored water that never freezes

Shifting and shimmering alluring 

Rainbows distracting 

Thoughts detracting 

And still sitting here all alone. 

The argument within

Wind in face, sun brightening the day

Freedom of rolling with the road

Yet you are hidden away

The roar too loud, no one will hear my cry

The rolling is shaking instability n insecurity

Join me as friend embracing freedom offered

Draw near in strength of fellowship n security of brotherhood

Friends leave and families are fake

Embracing is begging to be broken

The nearer I am drawn, the further away safety is found

I am still calling to you hand stretched out

We simply unite as one bound by blood

To move on n through no time no worries

Adoption isn't possible hugs are never free

Everything comes with a price n I've paid mine in spades

Never given reason to mistrust

Never given reason to trust

Can't earn what is gifted

Gifts are never given only earned

Free never been worth having

To you it's already been given through the bond offered

Come out of the shadows to a new freedom
Learn to dance on the wind

Only if you promise n never let go of my hand